just cut it off.

I thought my toe was getting better. Yesterdat and today it's been feeling worse. Why???? Maybe it really is broken. It has the symptoms that I've read on several sources. Painful to the touch. Unable to move. Swollen (it's been twice as big as my other big toe ever since my accident). Deformed...EW YES. I put both of my feet on the dashboard and noticed that the top part of my toe bends freakishly far to the right. It's ugly and gross. =( I'm sorry, toe. Ever since about 7 pm, I've been in excruciating pain. The ice and pills don't seem to be working anymore.

I hate this. I hate being stuck inside, not being able to drive nor take showers (just baths with my foot sticking out because I can't submerge my stitches). It's annoying, having to constantly ask people to help you with things because it hurts more than anything to do it yourself. It stinks because no one but you can feel your pain; when you're in pain they tell you to suck it up because their sick of hearing it (yeah well imagine how the one whose hurt feels!) or if you ask for help then you're just lazy. I don't want to be lazy. No no no. I wish I could go do things. At this rate, I'm probably not going to get to go on the California trip with the rest of my family. Adios, much-needed vacation.

It sucks. At this point, I just wish I didn't have a foot. At least I wouldn't feel the pain. I feel bad for Troy having to suffer through the couch-potatoness and pain when he comes over. He hasn't even complained though. He's always asking me how he can help and holds me.

This whole thing sucks so much.